So I'm taking this opportunity to brag on myself. I rarely do this because lately, I haven't felt I have much to brag about (other than my adorable baby, but she's all Scott). So, as you all know, I've been really struggling to find any motivation or willpower lately as far as eating healthy and exercising. In fact, my friend who is 9 months pregnant and already in labor is the one dragging me out on walks... Thanks April ;).
Well... Tonight Scott and I were not planning to go out like we usually do on Friday nights because his mom (who usually watches Jayna for us) is ill and Scott is, as well. So I decided that I would continue my super healthy trend that I've had for all of 3 days. However, at about 6:00, Scott said "Let's take Jayna and go out tonight... We haven't been out in a while."
This is where I need to let you in on my psyche... I have willpower to eat healthy until someone or something (commercial, billboard, etc.) suggests otherwise. (Yeah. Great willpower!) It's pretty pathetic! Once even the thought of fattening food or ice cream enters my head, I truly cannot get it out until I've eaten such crap-o-la. So, of coarse, when Scott suggested we go out, I immediately thought of pizza, breadsticks, hamburgers, fries... you name it! Here's where the first proud moment enters. We went to the mall and Scott wanted to get a steak sandwich and fries, which sounded incredibly divine! What did I do? I got steamed rice, green beans, and chicken!!! Yay for me!!! I was so dang proud of myself I could hardly contain it. (It's the small things, folks.)
Don't worry, it doesn't end there. We then walked around the mall for a while and ended up burning 700 calories... that's right, 700! Then when we left, Scott said he wanted to go to Baskin Robbins. Dang it! Ice cream?!?! Well, I can pass on BR, but usually when he goes there, I go to DQ and get a yummy Blizzard. So after he finished his ice cream, I told him I wanted him to take me to DQ. While on our way I TALKED MYSELF OUT OF IT!!! Can you believe it?! I can't either! I talked myself out of ice cream after I had made my mind up that I wanted it. I can count on one hand how many times I've talked myself out of something after I had my mind set on it... and most of those times was when I was at my healthiest and junk food made me feel like crap.
I know this whole entry seems stupid, but I seriously am so proud of the fact that I passed on two opportunities to eat bad. I feel so good about myself right now based on these pathetic little decisions! I feel good because I've reminded myself that I feel good when I eat well and that I can turn things down. Had I caved on either of these decisions, I would have less energy, would be feeling down that I was "weak" again, and would be going to bed worried about weighing in tomorrow. Now, I feel awesome! I'm excited to weigh-in and I feel good that I won a battle against my own brain :)!
Good night all!