Ramblings

So I feel the need to write, even though I really have nothing important to say. I'm amazed at how my pregnancy emotions have seemed to return since my gall bladder surgery. It's hilarious (or not) that I felt totally normal the week after having Jayna, but have been an emotional mess for the last couple of weeks. I hit my limit last Friday night and had a huge breakdown. I feel that overall, I've been very positive about everything Scott and I have had to endure in the last year and a half. However, after bed rest, c-section recovery, gall bladder attacks, and gall bladder surgery (and recovery) I was excited to be through everything. But no, I have now had a sore throat for 1 1/2 weeks, which is SO not ideal for teaching voice, and then last Friday night I threw my back out picking Jayna up... That's when I lost it! I threw a 2-yr-old tantrum and bawled for hours.

The next morning I couldn't even get my excitement up for my first "Join Our Journey" meeting, which I had been so excited about for 1 1/2 weeks. Luckily, Rebecca, Clarissa, and I were the only ones there. Normally, I would have been disappointed in such a small turn-out, but given my mood I was really grateful it was just the three of us. I am hoping to get more people to join us at the meetings (we have some out of town followers on the blog, which I'm grateful for), but figure that will start to happen after the holidays. I am really glad Rebecca and Clarissa are doing it with me, though! I think we have the perfect blend of personalities to help motivate one another.

My back is now feeling better, my sore throat is starting to heal, and I'm almost better from gall bladder surgery, so I'm praying for the best. Now I just have to figure out Jayna's tummy! She was doing so well for a few weeks, but has now returned to her super fussy ways. I'm hoping it will pass soon, as well. She has hit a major growth spurt, so I don't know if that has anything to do with it or not. She is sleeping for 7-hour stints through the night, which is sooooo wonderful!

Scott has a job interview today that I'm really hoping will pan out! If it does pan out, I think it will be something he will be good at and he will enjoy. Sadly, the whole PSR job he currently has, has not been a good experience, though he has gained some new skills and resume build from it. We'll keep fasting and praying for a good job in this economy. Sadly, Scott graduated at just the wrong time. The economy is starting to look up, but they're also trying to hire new grads. When Scott graduated, was when the economy was at it's worst... Needless to say, it's been a journey. :)

Sorry for all the negativity in this post! Just trying to get some things off my chest in hopes that I can get my positive attitude back. :)